My International Women’s Day 2018

I’m back!!!

I had a pretty busy week last week celebrating all things women’s history, and I wanna tell you about it!

I’ve been volunteering at Manchester Central Library with Archives + for a while now, and my first blog about women’s suffrage, which was co-written and slaved over for weeks, was finally published on Tuesday! Please give it a read, searching through the archives and researching for it was so interesting and I’m pretty proud of it 🙂

And then of course on Thursday it was International Women’s Day, so I decided to go on a little field trip. I’ve been meaning to visit the Pankhurst Museum in Manchester for years now, but as it is only open one day a week I hadn’t been able to make it. So what a perfect coincidence that I was free on IWD, which happened to be a Thursday, which happens to be the day the museum is open?!

The Pankhurst Museum is three rooms inside the Pankhurst Centre, which is on 62 Nelson Street, the house in which Emmeline Pankhurst lived, conceived the idea, and held the first meeting of the WSPU. The suffragette movement was born in this small house in the centre of Manchester, hidden away amongst all of the new hospital buildings which make up Manchester Royal Infirmary. I’ve actually walked past it on more than one occassion and not even realised, which I find absolutely mental.

The museum is small, but packed with information about the Pankhurst family, the suffragette movement, and Manchester’s involvement in the fight for women’s suffrage. There was even a short DVD which went through the history of the suffragettes and told the stories of a few of the women involved in the movement.

For me, being in this room where so many amazing women sat and discussed how they were going to make their voices heard, was the best way to spend International Women’s Day. I left feeling so inspired, as the fight for equality can seem so long and so difficult, but these women and many others risked so much and achieved something many didn’t think would ever be possible, from a tiny living room in Manchester.


On Thursday evening the film Suffragette was on Film 4 so I thought I would continue the theme and watch it. I enjoyed the film, and I really liked that they chose to tell the story of a group of working class women. I thought it was slightly odd, however, that the main character (played by Carey Mulligan) and most of the other characters were fictional, but they decided to put the very real story of Emily Wilding Davison throwing herself in front of the King’s horse almost as the climax of the film, as she wasn’t properly introduced until near the end of the film. It was a very poignant and emotional scene, but one that I felt kind of came out of nowhere. The use of actual footage of her funeral was a nice touch, though, which brought home the fact that the film was based on real life events. Overall it was a very moving film with great performances from all of the actors, especially the little boy playing Mulligan’s son, he was precious.

Finally, I finished off my week by going to a performance called She Bangs the Drums by Contact Theatre Manchester at the Museum of Science and Industry. The performance was part of Manchester’s Wonder Women festival, and covered everything from force-feeding of suffragette prisoners, to slut-shaming, to ‘female-friendly’ doritos. There was a live band called Powerful Women who helped in making the experience feel more authentic, and their final song even moved members of the cast to tears. There was so much crammed into a relatively short performance, and using so many different mediums, that it could easily have felt muddled and all over the place, but it is a testament to the whole team that they could go from comedy to tragedy so seamlessly, and left me thinking about all of the intricacies of the performance for hours afterwards. I also very much enjoyed the mixture of celebrating the achievements of the past 100 years with the reminders that the war is not yet won and that, internationally, we have a lot still left to fight for.


So that was my week of learning, history and female empowerment. Lots to celebrate but also a reminder that there is lots still to be done. Let’s get out there and change the world!


World Vegan Month Part III

How I talk to people about Veganism

Generally, if I can avoid it, I don’t. Anyone who says they don’t want to be liked is lying; and people are judgmental. People hear that you are vegan and immediately form an opinion of you, whether positive or negative. Some keep that to themselves, some take time to think about it and ask you questions due to genuine interest, some look for an argument and some are just plain rude.

The latter, I just ignore and take myself out of the situation as quickly as possible.

Pretty similar with people who just want an argument. You’ll normally know the difference between genuine interest and argumentative reactions by their tone, and how quickly they respond. If it’s an immediate ‘BUT WHY?!’ or something similar, they probably don’t actually want a proper answer, just to tell you all the reasons why you’re wrong. In these situations, I also try and shut it down pretty sharpish. Arguments get you nowhere. They’re just a waste of everyone’s time and energy.

As much as I would really like more people to take up a vegan lifestyle, I am not in the business of converting. I will answer any questions people may have, and politely tell them they are wrong when they say things like ‘but chickens aren’t harmed for us to get eggs’, but what I choose to eat or not is my business, and their choice is their own.

Often I end up feeling like a burden, like when my manager was buying snacks for stocktake and was stressing about what he could get for me (thank god for Oreos), which is why I tend not to tell people I’m vegan unless I have to. It’s not that I’m embarrassed of being vegan, quite the opposite I am very proud, it’s more that I feel awkward that others have to change their habits/conveniences to suit me.

I do love giving people little vegan facts, though. Seeing peoples’ reactions when I tell them random things like some alcohol isn’t vegan, or that party rings are sfv etc. can be fun. For me it’s important to keep it lighthearted and funny because not taking things too seriously is part of my personality in the majority of situations. You’ve got to give me notice if you want to have a serious discussion cause I need time to get in the zone.

November turned out to be a really busy month for me, so sadly I didn’t manage to do a weekly blog for World Vegan Month.. three out of four ain’t bad though, even if the last one is very, very late. Thanks for reading, if anyone stuck with me 🙂


World Vegan Month Part II

Hi friends! I nearly forgot I was meant to be writing a blog this week, and it’s only the second one…

So seen as this is very last minute (I’m going away for the weekend), I thought I would quickly go through some of my favourite vegan beauty products.

  1. Barry M – affordable and fab quality. My favourite products are the liquid eyeliner and basically all of the nail varnishes. On their website all of the products which are vegan have a little green symbol, which is super helpful.
  2. GOSH – the mineral foundation powder and foundation drops are amazing for the price. If you have dry skin, the drops are an absolute lifesaver.
  3. Collection – I know this one is quite controversial and some people believe their statement on their animal testing policy is too confusing, but I think it’s perfectly straight forward. See for yourself here. I’ve never used a concealer as good as their Lasting Perfection Concealer, and for less than a fiver and vegan, it’s a massive win.
  4. Charlotte Tilbury – a high end cruelty free brand here with loads of vegan products available.
  5. Sleek– Another affordable brand with high quality products. Their eyeshadow palettes are to die for.

I promise next week I’ll come up with something more insightful. Or, I’ll try my best at least.


World Vegan Month

Happy World Vegan Day everybody!

Apparently November is also World Vegan Month, so I’m going to do my best to post a blog a week, like I did for Veganuary, about my favourite vegan products/ recipes/foods etc. (I haven’t made a proper plan yet so bear with me)

So to kick things off, I’m going to make a list of some of my favorite vegan brands that make great food alternatives and make my life that little bit easier.


My cheese saviour. They have such a great range of cheese alternatives, I’ve only tried a tiny fraction so far. I love them because they’re available in Tesco, convenient for my big shop, and in Holland and Barrett, so I don’t really have many different brands to compare them to that are more difficult to get a hold of.

Of the ones I have tried though, their cream cheese spread and cheddar block/slices are my faves.


AND I can’t wait to try their new Halloumi wedges which I found in Sainsbury’s last week.


Specifically, their ‘Cheatin” range of fake meats. The chicken style, ham style and turkey style are lifesavers for a sandwich lover like me, because it takes two minutes to prepare when I’m running late for work, and they taste great. Available at Holland and Barrett. who always have great sales on like buy one get one half price etc., and they’re only £1.79 a packet to begin with.

Linda McCartney

My queen. Affordable, frozen, available in most supermarkets, and, most importantly, delicious. There is so much to choose from, but my personal faves are the rosemary and red onion sausages, country pies and sausage rolls. The burgers are amazing too, and the scampi bites are yummy and I haven’t seen any other alternative to scampi by any other brand. Basically, all hail Queen Linda.


Obviously not just vegan brands, but over the past year these supermarket giants have been absolutely smashing it with their free from ranges. From cheese, to yoghurts and desserts, to jam tarts and my absolute favourite cheesy nachos (thanks Tesco), and not to mention ready meals (this unhealthy/lazy vegan’s dream) being vegan is not only easier it is more affordable, when practically every month one of the supermarkets brings out a new own brand product at half the price of the branded.

It is also really handy that my mum, not being experienced at reading food labels, can go into Tesco or Sainsbury’s and pick up something from their own range that she knows I’ll be able to eat because it says ‘free from milk and eggs’ on the front.



And finally, my favourite plant-based milk for tea and porridge has to be oat milk. But that’s not the only reason I love Oatly, the wonderful Swedish brand; they also do a cream and a creme fraiche alternative. When I was veggie, I was a huge fan of creamy pasta dishes using creme fraiche, cause they were easy and quick. Now I can use the same recipes, just with the Oatly creme fraiche instead! And if my mum’s made an apple crumble, the single cream goes down a treat too. And they’re available in Tesco soo what’s not to love?!


Oatly are also just a great company, you should go read about them here.

That’s it for this week, folks. Hopefully I’ll be back next week to ramble about other vegan-related goodness. Thanks for reading!

Chronic Fatigue Syndrome/ME

A year (and a bit) since diagnosis

And what a year it has been.

Since being diagnosed last July, I’ve left two jobs to start new ones, I’ve moved out of my parents’ house, been to a six week self-management course, become a vegan, and come off my antidepressants after over three years.

And yes, I’m still incredibly tired; despite making lots of positive changes that have helped in different ways.

Having a label isn’t always a good thing, but when you have so many different symptoms that don’t seem to add up to anything in particular, ME is a really useful label. I can use it to tell employers why I might need an extra break during the day, or can’t do a particular task one day that I was fine doing last week.

I still find it hard to tell people I have this condition, and I’m still working on exactly why that might be. There are many different reasons I can come up with; such as I don’t think they’ll believe me and they’ll just think I’m being lazy or attention-seeking, or I don’t want them to feel sorry for me or treat me any differently, or I just don’t really like talking about myself to people that aren’t my closest friends or family.

For all of those reasons I have only told a select few people, and even then it’s mostly been because I’ve felt like I’ve had to. And so far the reaction has been mostly positive, and the negative ones I think have been down to me not expressing myself clearly enough, which is something I have been working on. It’s important I make it known I’m being serious, which is difficult when I am almost always joking around or being sarcastic.

One way of describing the way ME makes me feel that I’ve used recently is that ‘it’s like being really hungover, but all the time’, which is something most people can relate to and immediately get it, if only the tip the iceberg. It also helps keep the conversation light-hearted, because I don’t want to go into all my symptoms (which is a bloody long list) when someone’s just asked what it’s like to have the condition, because they’ve never heard of it before.

I think what I’m trying to say is; nothing has changed, but everything has changed. I know what I’m dealing with, and I know (thanks to the self-management course and lots of internet research) what I can do to help myself and make my life easier. Going forward, I need to learn how to tell people when I don’t feel well and how to ask for help, and I need to commit to practicing mindfulness regularly to make sure I’m getting enough relaxation time.

This has been a post. Sort of.



‘The Handmaid’s Tale’ TV series – A Review

I know I’m running a tiny bit behind; but I finally just watched the final episode of series one (I still can’t believe they’re spinning it out to a series two – though I must admit I am excited for it).

Spoiler warning – if you’re even further behind than me


I have a lot of feelings about the series as a whole. For the most part: wow. Visually impressive with wonderful actors conveying to the viewer and making them feel all of those emotions shared by readers of Atwood’s novel.

Just occasionally though, I felt like the way it looked was put ahead of the actual content. One example is the scene after the stoning-that-wasn’t. The defiant march is one thing, I was semi-on board with that, but using ‘Feelin’ Good’ in that context was just odd. It sounded and looked good, but just didn’t fit in with the tone of the previous scene. I’m pretty sure none of the handmaids were feelin’ very good at all. Defiant and powerful maybe; but not good. It was a simplistic and easy choice, when for the most part the rest of the series felt so technical and is if thought had been put into every little detail.


Speaking of detail, what was that amputation scene all about? Unnecessary in every single way. Unnecessary to show it in such graphic detail, and unnecessary to have it, and the previous scene, in there at all. What was it even trying to say? To me, it was throwing a little ‘men suffer in this too’ line, and I’m just not buying it. If anyone else can shed a little light on the purpose of the scene and the one previous to it,  I would be grateful.

Another grumble I have is some of the content that wasn’t from Offred/June’s point of view was boring. Some of the flashbacks were well-placed and enhanced the storyline; but others, particularly Luke’s episode, were just holding up the action. That episode, for me, could have been cut all together, or made into a short section and squeezed into another episode as an extra side. I actually skipped through a lot of it and don’t feel my experience of the series as a whole has been affected having missed it.

The relationship between June/Offred and Nick the driver was probably my favourite of all the relationships in the series. Their interactions and the frequency of them were just right. Also Janine was incredible. All of the handmaids were incredible, but Janine’s character could have so easily been taken too far, but the actor did an amazing job.

On the whole, the acting made this series a masterpiece more than any other aspect. I can’t wait for the next series, despite myself, considering we’ve run out of novel. My hopes are high, if slightly wary.

Thanks for reading 🙂


Coming Off My Meds – Part 2

It’s happened! I’m officially not on antidepressants anymore.

It feels like forever since I made part one of this “series” (over two months ago to be semi-exact), but I’ve finally reached the end of this long-ass journey. Well, this part of the journey anyway; I don’t think it’s ever really the end when it comes to depression and anxiety. For me anyway, just like my CFS/ME, it’s always something I’m going to have to work on to keep on top of.

Speaking of CFS, I’ve been going to a group for three out of the six week course now, and the management tips are definitely going to help me with my mood should it be affected. I think my mental health issues are what triggered my CFS in the first place, so depression and anxiety are some of my main symptoms that I need to manage.

So far, I haven’t seen a notable difference in my mood, but it is still early days. It makes me more confident knowing, after two courses of CBT over the years as well as the aspects of it in CFS management, that I can easily spot the warning signs and know what to do about it.

So despite being painstakingly long, coming off my meds has been relatively easy and simple. I’m relieved that it’s done, and I can start living my life anti-dep free; at least for now.



Coming Off My Meds – Part One?

I’m back!

Almost in time for Mental Health Awareness Week as well… not quite, but almost.

I believe May is Mental Health Month in the US though, so I’m still in time for that! Although, for me, as for many people, I am very aware of my mental health 365 days, 52 weeks and 12 months a year… so really, it’s always a relevant topic (that was awfully deep but I’m not sorry I’m proud of it).

ANYWAY get to the point, you idiot. I’m starting to come off my medication. I’ve been taking antidepressants for the past three years, and I think it’s time I experienced life without them.

That summary sounds like it was a really quick decision for me, but it was quite the opposite. It is too much of a scary concept for me to take lightly. So, in case anyone is interested, this is how I came to that decision.

When I first went to see my GP about my depression, I was just about to turn 18, and just beginning to come out of what was the darkest period of my life so far. A little switch had gone off in the back of my mind that said I needed to get help so I can get better and actually pass my A Levels, which were happening in a couple of months time. Medication actually wasn’t really discussed as a credible option for me, and I went along with the recommendation to try CBT.

I don’t remember having any particular feelings one way or the other about antidepressants, but I didn’t really have any particular feelings about anything at the time.

The CBT had some sort of positive effect, as I passed my A Levels and felt ready to go to University by that September. It wasn’t until midway through my second year that I decided if I was going to get the marks I knew I was capable of, I needed a bit of extra help. So, I went to my Nottingham GP, and he gave me some material to read about antidepressants to make a decision on whether or not I wanted to try them. I also chose to sign up for a course of over-the-phone CBT, which wasn’t useless but it wasn’t very useful either, but I don’t want to go off on that tangent now.

After lots of deliberation, discussions with good friends, and my mum, I decided to go for it. Like most people, I was first prescribed 50mg of Citalopram, which made me incredibly nauseous for the first few weeks, and then began to give me unbearable indigestion (seriously, it was like someone had put a hot poker all the way down my throat and into my stomach and was just twirling it around, constantly. I could barely eat).

So, I went back to my GP, and we gave Sertraline a try, and that is what I have been taking since. When I was struggling to get through the pressure of uni work, I doubled the dose to 100mg, and just a few months ago I went up to 150mg when I explained to my new/old GP back home that I was struggling more with the anxiety side.

I think, overall, the meds did their job. I made it through uni, and loved it, and I’ve managed to maintain a full time job since graduating; not loving it as much, but making the most of it and making £££. They’ve allowed me to live my life on my terms and not on my mental illness’.

However, I feel kind of flat. As much as I haven’t felt the devastating lows of my teenage years, during what should be highs, I often find myself thinking about how happy something makes me, rather than actually feeling it.

Basically, nothing is changing, for worse or for better, and I would rather be stable off the meds rather than on them; not knowing how they’re really affecting me, because I don’t remember what I was like before them; apart from being horrifically depressed, not wanting to leave my bed or do life whatsoever.

Who knows? I might be going back on them a few months or years down the line, but at least I’ll have some kind of measure of what effect they’re having on my mind and on my body.

Stay tuned to find out what happens on the next stage of my journey! Well done if you’ve lasted this long and got this far through my babble. I’m a fortnight into cutting my dose down by 50mg on alternate days for three weeks at a time (luckily I understand what I mean), so may be updating on my progress in a few weeks time.

Wish me luck!

Carnage: Swallowing the Past- a review

Bloomin’ marvellous

Yes, I’m already a massive fan of Simon Amstell and all of his work.

Yes, I’m already a committed vegan.

But this comedy/drama/documentary/mockumentary, or whatever heading you put it under, is a masterpiece. And I want everyone to watch it.

Simon Amstell’s comedy has always been funny because it’s so honest. Even back to his Popworld and then Buzzcocks days, he made us laugh by taking the piss out of popstars with lines containing nothing but the truth.

When he annoyed Preston from Ordinary Boys (they had that one hit that no one remembers) so much he walked off the show, and left the audience in stitches, all he did was read from Preston’s then-wife’s book. The jokes literally wrote themselves.

His stand-up material is made up of self-deprecating stories of loneliness, and his sitcom Grandma’s House is pretty much autobiographical; so you get the point, Amstell doesn’t tend to beat around the bush.

And Carnage is no different; except it isn’t about his own disastrous dating stories or stupid things popstars have said – it’s on the slightly more serious topic of veganism. It is backed up by real-life events and scientific fact; but it’s still hilarious?! That is the genius of it.

Everything he says – in his documentary-narrator voice – from the raping of cows, to chicken periods, to food rationing during the Second World War – is true. Yes there’s some fictitious characters thrown in (obviously, it’s set 50 years in our future), but for the most part the people and the shocking facts are real.


It all sounds so ludicrous that it is funny – but it’s all true! Down to the woman dressed as a cow singing on stage about how her babies have been taken away – it’s funny and moving (mooving, if you will) all at the same time. I think we all thought that that was impossible but somehow the people behind Carnage have managed it.


The star of an anti-dairy musical

I even got emotional towards the end thinking about a world, or at least a Britain, where eating meat and dairy was unthinkable. I teared up at a goat jumping for joy on an old mattress for crying out loud! The fact that we know the images from the past – i.e. 1944 up until 2017 – are real, make it seem like the fictional events that come after could actually happen, which leaves a kind of sense of hope as well as entertainment lingering after the film is over.

It’s so good that I don’t think I’m doing it any justice in this review; so all that’s left to say is please go and watch it on BBC iplayer now!





Veganuary Week Four – Not Just for January!

Veganuary is over! And it was… surprisingly easy! You can tell how excited I am because I’ve used three exclamation marks already.

Unfortunately for me, I am not one of those people who goes vegan and feels loads of health benefits or have more energy, but that was a long shot considering my CFS. Also a long shot because of course I’ve tried most of the vegan junk food on offer in the supermarket where I work :’).


Exhibit A in the unhealthy food category – crumpets and melted vegan cheese

However, knowing I am finally causing as little harm as possible, to my knowledge, to animals makes me feel as if a weight has been lifted from my shoulders; I’m no longer carrying around this guilt caused by knowing how much suffering the dairy and egg industries inflict on cows and chickens.

I also had no idea how much of an impact animal agriculture had on climate change and the planet. The industry contributes more carbon dioxide than all of the world’s transport combined?!?! Blew my mind. It genuinely baffles me that people can call themselves environmentalists and still eat meat, knowing this fact. Burying our heads in the sand about carbon emissions etc. set us back years, think how long this is going to set us back, and how much this is going to impact the planet.

On top of the animals and the planet, there’s the humans. The fact that the grain we in the West use to feed livestock could be used to feed the entire hum


I’ve actually started to like mushrooms?!

an population of the world, leaving not a single person starving, infuriates me. Why should developed countries have the ‘privilege’ of slaughtering animals for meat, not only at the expense of those animals, but also our fellow human beings.

Knowing all of this, I don’t think I can ever going back to eating animal products. Yes I might slip up sometimes, but as long as I’m doing what I can, I know I’ll feel much happier.

Here’s to Vegan February, March, April, May, June… you get the idea 😉


Vegan mac and cheese-less, so yum.